Sunday, 6 June 2010

I can't believe it

The Past 6 Months

I have such mixed emotions tonight. Millie got her last dose of chemo today before she goes into Maintenance; she still has chemo pills for a week but I feel like we have reached the end of the beginning. If that makes sense.

I have hated witnessing my oldest child go through so many horrific things, but at the same time the poisons that have been pumped through her tiny, little system are the same poisons that have kept her cancer away. I'm terrified and ecstatic all at the same time.

We still have A LOT of chemo a head of us. Amelia will have to take 6-MP at home every single day, along with steroids 5 days out of the month. She will also be going to the hospital once a month for more chemo. This will go on for the next 2 years of her life. She was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (A.L.L.) at 4 years old and she will finish with everything around the time she turns 7. My little girl will be 7. 7, that is so old, she will be so big. It's not fair that a chunk of her childhood will be tainted with this. The only thing I can say is she will have a record of how many people truly love her and support her. One day she can look back and know that there were hundreds of people praying for her health. We appreciate your support and I hope you continue to follow us over the next part of our journey.

I still can't believe it. I don't know whether I should be crying tears of joy or sadness. I just know I'm crying.

A.L.L. Fact: Cancer in children and adolescents is rare. But, A.L.L. is the most common cancer in children representing 23% of cancer diagnosed among children younger than 15 years of age. It occurs in about 1 of every 29,000 children in the United States each year. They can not explain why one person gets leukemia and another does not.


Jodi and Tony said...

Lord knows you have EVERY right to be crying. But I'm happy that your tears stem from not only pain but from JOY. Your little girl is kicking cancer's butt and Millie has a wonderful, bright future ahead. Love to all of you. xoxo

{owens} said...

seriously breaks my heart that she has to endure so much so little. you must know you have a sweet little fighter on your hands. those pictures are certainly hard to look at :( good luck you guys. i'm glad the beginning is finally ending. think about you often..

ash and cam

keri and taylor said...

She is stronger than many adults I know! We will keep Millie and your family I'm out prayers! Xoxo

Mike and Me said...

Tears they come for both reasons and at times they do come at the same time but how grateful we are for tears of joy. What a marvelous and beautiful little Millie bug she is.
Her Grandpa Loves her so very much, her Mom and Dad too. (Splash on the paper)

Nisha said...

We are praying for sweet Millie and cheering her on in this fight! Your strength gives us strength to get through the little day-to-day trials that don't really matter so much. Thank you sharing your story.

Melissa Stringham said...

Amanda, I am crying for you. I can't imagine what you and Millie and Brady have been through and will go through. It makes perfect sense to cry both tears of joy and sadness. You guys are amazing!

lindsay Roscoe said...

Those are some really hard pictures to look at. SHe is SO MUCH older then she was when this all began. I always have known she wa strong but after watching her this weekend I am left speechless. I am grateful we are at maintanence. Your sister loves you very much so does my entire family

Brandi said...

What an amazing little girl you have! Sending faith, hope and prayers your way!

Princess P said...

I don't have the right words....more loves and prayers.

communikate. said...

Wow. I seriously can't even imagine what this might be like for you guys to go through. I'm glad the first part is over.


Mike and Me said...

I don't know which is harder, watching my baby suffer or watching your baby suffer (our baby). I never doubted either of you, you both have the same strong will. I think we have all gotten alot "bigger" than we were before this experience.
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times"!
Thanks to all of you that are loving and supporing my child, grandchild, and her husband and son. Words will never be enough.
Love mom