Monday, 24 December 2012

Thank you

Pulled up to the house, parked in the garage, and started crying. Sobbing really. I just couldn't walk into my empty house. I want Millie home. This isn't fair. She shouldn't have to do this again. Finally, I pulled myself together, got Austin out of the back (he was asleep) and started to get settled for the night. Jack started to bark so I slowly wandered to the front door. Not only had my driveway been shoveled, but sitting on my porch was so much love. Some people left notes and some did not, either way I want you all to know how much I needed the pick-me-up and the Christmas cheer. I am amazed at the love that we are given. Not only was my porch covered with gifts, but Millie and Austin have been showered with them the last couple days, not to mention Brady and I. So many of you have gone out of your way to help our whole family feel loved and support. I don't know if I would be as positive as I am if I didn't know how many people were backing us every moment of every day. We can do this. Millie can do this. I know it. I wish I could give each one of you a huge and tell you I love you and I am deeply grateful, but I can't, so please take this message and know that your kindness has been noticed, needed, and appreciated. Thank you and Merry Christmas. 

10 comments:

Missy said...

Amanda, you and your family are in our thoughts every day. We love you so much and wish you the best on the upcoming year.

Dan and Liz said...

I wanted you to know that we've been thinking about you guys even though we've only met once or twice (I'm Ali Thackeray's sister) She can do it...you can do it! We are rooting for her!

catpet said...

My thoughts have been with you and your family. I am not sure if you know who I am; but, my baby (Nicole Peterson) also had a bone marrow Transplant about the same that your Millie did. I wish I had some amazing words to help you. Just know that you've been in my thoughts and prayers wishing I knew how to help.

Cathy

The Dahl's said...

I personally do not know Millie or your family, but I have followed your story through the Utefans.net fundraiser that was done a while back. Millie had her transplant on my birthday this year, so I dedicated it to her by not getting any presents, rather spending the money on running the race a week later. Millie has touched my heart and I think about her always. I respect the strength that you must have as a mother. You are an inspiration to me and I hope I can be as strong as you are when I become a mother one day. Millie and your family are in my prayers always.

Miki said...

Amanda, we have never met. I went to school with Brady and Bryan. I have followed Millie's story and was heartbroken to hear of her relapse. Just wanted you to know that Millie and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. May the Lord contine to give you and Brady the strength you need to go to battle yet again. Warmest regards, Miki Carlson Eberhardt

onmynerves said...

I am soo broken hearted for your family, as manty have posted, I dont know your family but I follow this blog because of a friend, I too am battling cancer, but I.plead with god for forgiveness for any moment of self pity, any moment of complaining about how I feel,my trial is trivial.in comparrison and I PROMISE in the name of god to NEVER feel self pity, weakness or complaining EVER again, I am a selfish person to give god my concerns when your sweet family is in such termoil, I am angry, I am saddened, I am devistated, I am brought to my knees for Millie, I am sorry and humbled at her amazing will to survive, GOD IN HEAVEN I.deplore you to blessed this innocent child with health, please pass her pain and sufferring to me, I am a grown women, let her live the life she so deserves... I am sorry, I am so sorry.

Megan said...

I've never commented before, but I've been following Milly in her battle from the first time she fought cancer. She, and you all, have been in my prayers many, many times. I am so saddened to hear that she has relapsed once again. But I know if there is one kid who can kick cancer's butt a 3rd time, it's Milly! She is simply amazing. Such an incredibly strong, resilient, and wonderful spirit. You can do it, Milly! You will kick cancer to the curb! I'll be praying for you and thinking of you. GO MILLY!
-Megan from SLC

Lacy Allred said...

I'm a friend of Crystal and Skyler's. I found your blog through them. I have been reading about sweet Millie since but have never commented. I am SO excited that Millie was able to meet Justin Bieber! I have been telling everyone "that is my friend! that little girl is my friend!" Just wanted to say hello and let you know I'm fighting along with you guys.
Love,
Lacy

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Anonymous said...

This is probably one of the most emotional post I have read. When I found your blog I started reading from 2009, most post you can't read without tears running. Such a roller coaster of emotions. You are all a very strong family, I couldn't imagine going through this with one of my children. Miss Millie is so beautiful and strong, she has touched many people's lives.
Thank you for sharing your lives and your fight with cancer, you've shared some very personal moments your family has went through. It is a true reminder of how precious everyday is, we tend to forget that so easily this is such a harsh reminder.
I am so sorry for your loss, you have a very beautiful daughter that went through more then most people do. I was really hoping everyday for her to get better, life can be so unfair and very hard to understand why.
Bless your family and your little boy :)
You really could publish your blog to a book, Millie's life is an amazing story.