Can I just say how HAPPY I was to write "2011". I am not a big New Year person, but the start of a new year means we are closer to 2012 and we are so close to being a year out to saying GOOD RIDDANCE to cancer. I know I am very ahead of myself but I seriously can't wait till February. Then we can count down the months.
Amelia's clinic went well. I love it when we only get Vincristine. It makes everything run so much smoother. Millie's appointment was actually last Thursday and she just finished up her round of Dexomethosone (rotten steroids) last night. Her little system does not handle them very well. She is always so emotional. I swear she feels like the world is out to get her. I love my bug and it's so hard to see her that way. It's difficult to know how to handle it as well. It's hard to watch her mope around and have nothing cheer her up.
She has been extra tired too. I'm starting to feel like I'm a little obsessive with getting blood counts, but I hate waiting a month to know what's going on with her. I know she needed a blood transfusion this go round, but there is nothing I can really do about it. The pictures I took of her are from Sunday and you can tell that she is run down. Her preschool teacher on Monday and her gymnastics coach today both told me they think she looks pale and that she was very tired the whole time. She is such a trooper though and she begs me to go to classes. We have been so careful since she had the flu and I'm not letting her play with other kids very much. She hates it so the last thing I want to do is make her miss classes as well. I never know what's right, I can just go with my gut and hope for the best.
I apologize for the tangent.
Millie putting on a smile even though she was near tears. I'm sorry, but I think she looks awful. Her little pale face and dark circles brings me near tears too.
Height: 105.1 cm
Weight: 16.7 kg (about 37 pounds)