Wednesday, 8 December 2010
Today I'm tired. Today I dislike the world. Today I saw 4 different cars flip-off other cars, gratefully not me. Today my sister saved me by taking Austin and Amelia. Today I cried. Today I sent Amelia to see the Nutcracker for her 1st time without me because I couldn't face it - I missed this memory. Today Brady had his doctor's appointment and his knee is healing well from surgery. Today my head is throbbing. Today I cried. Today I heard horrible stories about what's going on in other people's lives, people I know, people I care about, and I felt guilty for feeling sorry for myself when so many others suffer. Today I painted. Today I cried. Today I am scared for my daughter who starts a new round of Maintenance chemotherapy tomorrow - Methotrexate will be injected into her spinal fluid in an effort to keep her cancer away. Today I worry about the side effects like brain damage. Today and EVERY day I am grateful she is alive. Today I cried.