What The Heck

Millie has had diarrhea on and off for a little over 2 weeks. NOT COOL. I knew it wasn't that she was sick with a bug because it was very random as to when her stomach would get upset. It seemed to have nothing to do with what she ate, or when. She would just randomly be sprinting to the bathroom and then she'd go a day without being sick at all. The poor girl was up all night Thursday night and I had had enough so I insisted she be seen at clinic. I had called several times before this, but I felt like they were treating me like I was a bit nuts. It's only diarrhea. Well that's not all it was. After the head nurse in the Oncology Clinic saw Millie they knew something wasn't right. They pumped her full of fluids, took blood and stool samples, and we waited. Millie's preliminary blood counts started coming back and everything was looking good. Our nurse Mindy (who is one of my favs), thought that she would be needing a blood transfusion for sure but her hermatocrit was great. Then we finally got her ANC and it too was great.

Then they can rushing back in and told me to stop all chemotherapy immediately. Amelia's liver enzymes were off the chart. Her poor little body is so out of whack. Just when we think she is in the clear and we are on the "easy" stage something like this happens. I am sick that Millie has been in so much pain over the past two weeks and that everything we were doing for her was making it worse. She has Zofran for nausea and it's extremely hard on the liver. Man, sometimes I wonder what in the heck I'm doing. Being a mother is exhausting. I just want to help her and take away all her pain. I hate that she has to deal with such horrible side effects. She even lost 3 pounds in 2 weeks. On a tiny little body like hers it's A LOT of weight. That's actually one of the reasons I insisted on them seeing her. She was getting way to skinny.

Now it's a waiting game. Millie will get re-tested on Friday and hopefully we will have some more answers as to what's going on with her.

Millie's Current Counts vs. 2 Weeks Ago

Height: 107.2 cm vs. 107.2 cm

Weight: 16.0 kg vs. 17.3 kg, ( 3 pound weight loss)

ANC: 1800 vs 1000

Liver Enzymes:

ALT: normal range 10-25

Millie's 997

AST: normal range 15-50

Millie's 574